In Tension

1) Since God allowed it to happen, He has plans for how this will be for our good. He continues to be all we need and wants us to focus on Him.

2) What you did to me was unjustified and will require a settlement someday. (There possibly is also stuff I did to you that was unjustified and will require a settlement; but if you don't tell me I wouldn't know.)

3) I think you may be facing major issues that you need time and space to work out. (I'm not sure, but I think so.) You may need support for these, but you have rejected my support. So perhaps I can best support you by praying for you and not disturbing you.

4) Nobody can force you to do what you don't want to do. Even if every word from my mouth/fingers hits home and is true, if your heart is set on moving on despite the uncertainty of issues, despite the lack of clarification and unjustified action, nobody can turn you from that course except God.

Now, dear Lord, how do I hold all these in tension? It's difficult, but if all of these are really true, I will try.

I really will try.

I wish I had asked for a hug that day.